Sick.

Can I get sick of people who keeps on asking for a help just because I don’t know how to express my feelings? I’m in trouble too! I need help too! Saje acah letak exclamation mark hahah. Repeating is fun until you start to control yourself. Mom said you don’t have to control but then maybe I should try it. I guess control is not healthy cause I’m having variable of sicks nowadays. I’m okay if I’m going to die but please not my mom. I’m not ready and I love her so much. It feels like I want to talk to our family about how I felt but of course it will stay as my dreams. My family has this concept where budak kecil takleh nasihat org tua. Budak kecil jangan sampuk cakap orang tua. And it is very very sad to have an ability but you cannot you use it just because “you don’t understand what I’m doing cause you are still small”. I think now I know why I’m such a brave girl to spit out bad words to my friends whenever I had a chance. It is because I cannot do it with my family. It is because of hormat orang tua. Don’t feel the need of revealing bad things to public.

Maybe everyone’s problem start with THE family. Or at least THE unprepared parents